"I am convinced that He [God] does not play with dice. "

So here I'm back wid one more story....
HEART GOES ON AND ON...........................

This is the story of a boy and a girl travelling in a train..( arre bhai train main to bahut bande bandian travell karte hain ) ..But dis one is special..........Ya and here it is.....It is a train in paris . Lets first name the boy and the girl.Boy is Jack ( Jack Dawson ) and the girl is Rose.....This atleast is not another titanic..but these names suit.
Train is a very b'ful train not like the locals of India. It is really clean and is passing through the great orchirds and parks of Paris..and puffing out a lot of smoke...which makes it an awesome scene which one of the greatest painters in world would have ever imagined.....And people inside are sitting like normal ....children are playing ....unaware of the fact that how lovely is the experience of seeing a train travell through those meadows......But travelling has its own flavour ... and for these two young people ( jack & rose ) it would probably have been their luckiest trip..
Jack and rose both are in the same coach ..but jack is at the far end and rose is sitting in the front..Both are reading some book..novels..most probably romantic ones.Cool breeze is blowing and making the enviornment in the train more lively.....After a certain time it is noticed that there is some disturbance between the couple sitting to the left of Rose.They are basically old coupples and very old....They are arguing on some topic..but are a bit loud to disturb others sitting near to them...Rose cannot prevent herself from taking a look at them....In paris it is said that when couples become old..their listening abilities are diminished to a certain extent and both them just talk to each other ...and niether of them understands what other person is speaking and they just go on and on...( its cute ) .....And the couple in the train...yes they are not speaking in english but in french...Rose is observing them and their arguments have now converted to some heated ones......And suddenly the lady stands up and rushes to the back of the train and her husband follows her .... Rose resumes reading her novel again...after some time the couple returns to their seat.....and are sagin shouting...Disturbed by all this Rose just gets off her seat and goes to a seat at the back...probablly the seat adjacent to jack...Jack notices him sit but continues reading his novel....Both have a communication with eyes...( How amazing is the eye communication... both dont know about it but the other person can read the mind...and everyone on this earth has this skill ... With every stranger the first thing u have is the eye contact and in most of the cases just by eye contact u can estimate that whether he/she is interested in talking or not....) Now coming back...yes Jack knew that rose was interested bcause rose was constantly staring at him everytime he raise his eyes from the book......
Now jack puts his book down ,looks at the watch and faces rose with confidence and asks for company to lunch...Rose agrees to it as if she was just waiting for someone to ask for .... As I told u it is not a normal train ..they have a seperate coach for a cafeteraia in tha train....Now jack and rose are sitting besides a table and are waiting for their order to come..Now jack initiates the talk.." Hi, myself jack..."..." Hello, I'm Rose"......" Good to meet u rose, where r u travelling to ? " ......." I'll go till the last stop , what about you ?" ...." Great !! I'll get off at venice ....." Then the order arrives and after eating their lunch they continue to know more about each other....." So rose wat do u do ...?" " I'm in a college..mind telling about yourself"..." Oh sure ! Myself ..........Ya .........I dont do anything just travelling around and going places "...
"I dont expect this out of a man who is reading Sidney Sheledon "
" Ohh ...look at you..who are you to judge me "
" Its great to be gree to go anywhere . I also want that freedom in my life "
" Yes it is "
" So , what will you do in venice "
" Same thing that I did in germany "

So the conversation went on and on..probably for an hour...
Many facts about both the sides ulged out in the conversation......It came out as a fact that Rose is very much afraid of death and looks to everything the same way..like while travelling in an airplane ahe cannot resist her of thinking that it will crash and everyone will die.....
Opposite to this jack is purely optimistic in nature and believes in facing challenges...
Both had a nice conversation..People with opposite viewpoints generally have a long conversation..because both have a huge number of arguments supporting their viewpoint....... But people with same thinking criteria have generally the same thoughts and they agree to each other very quickly and sonn they are exhausted with topics to talk on......
Now jack and rose returned back to their respective seats as jack has to get down at the next station...Now both are not talking any more and not even reading the novel any more..It seems that both want to go on and on ... but who will initiate.... Its jack again .. After 10 minutes or so he will be out of the train..He cannot just wait and goes to rose...He proposes her to get down at the next station with her, thet he liked talking to her and want to go on and on... He says that look ..." lets go to 10 years in futue, you would be happily married to a person obviously not me , and would be having kids and living your life happily...Then one day it happens to be that you are just thinking of all the guys u have ever met in your life before you got married....Then proably you will think of me...And by any chance if you think that had u given me a chance you life would have been more better and then your ongoing life would also be screwed thinking that you would have been happier than this if you had held my hand...Its just a matter of one day Rose..If you dont like u can go back tommorow by same train....but we can give it a try..........I dont have any place to stay ..we can just walk and talk for the whole night....just give it a try........" It took a minute for Rose to absorb this shocking proposal of Jack.... The train stopped at venice and still jack is convincing Rose...Finally she agrees and gets off with him....

And then there they just went on and on ..... full day just talking to each other ...expressing each other...knowing more about each other and thn it was just the two of them..... they only cared about each other and they were in LOVE...........

Just For You……………..

Disclaimer: Relating the following story to any incident or any character in real life is a completely punishable offense .....

This is a story of a man called Sayed. This guy is from Assam and lets go back some years in his life.

Sayed is born to a poor family, a really poor family and after birth of Sayed their main time is devoted to him. Seeing him play with anything he finds like a toy in the house is a daily ritual for them.They occasionly even buy him a gift , once a month. Like all the parents they do everything to keep him happy……..Ohh you (if anybody reads my blog )might be thinking that this is what is obvious and this story is crap…..Everybody expects something unusual to happen to make the story interesting. If everything goes on smoothly it is not believable, because every person on this earth has gone through tough times …………here comes the irony…How we all curse the bad times in our lives, and just love to read the same in a story or watch in a movie…they just thrill u. Shahrukh Khan crying in a movie for his departing girl friend is probably the scene everybody appreciates in a movie… Now I’m not here to discuss about this.

Now I will continue the story…and yes it is not a usual one..

Now Sayed is a young boy and goes to a good school ( his parents have managed to pay the fees of the school somehow, by working overtime or anything ), but they will not let their child suffer..just because of the fact that they don’t want him to lead the life they are living. They will do every possible thing in the world to make their child capable enough to standalone and face the challenges alone. And this is what they can do, but everything depends upon him. Sayed is also an intelligent guy and performs well in the school .Now he has a dream to become a soldier. His parents obviously don’t want their child to go away from them, but they are supporting him for whatever he tries to achieve in his life and will forever do. And now comes the time for Sayed to write the entrance test for military..Ohh about his school days..there was no special event to discuss about here..He is now just a day less than the enterance xam for military and parents are just fully supporting him.The deemed day has come..and he is writing the exam and writing it with full confidence. There seems to be no stress in his mind. It seems he is writing to top the exam. His parents standing out are just praying to god to give him strength to pass the exam….all the tension can be seen on their foreheads…But sayed is as cool as ice. Now I’ll not go in more details. He just comes out of the examination hall and parents are all excited to hear that their child has fared well in the exam. He tells that he has done it well. Now he is just free. And not like normal students, he just watches movies of soldiers, and read newspaper..and all that stuff during his vacations.And after one month here comes the result. Result shoul be out by 8, and everybody is at the internet café to see the result.Website is busy..time is just flying.it is 8:30 now and people have still not known about their result. Some students are frustrated. But Sayed is just standing as still as the ocean.no tension, no worries.He is just waiting for the result.And after a wait of 15 more minutes…which were like a year for all other students website is activated. Everybody is zealed to see his result. The feeling is unexplainable. After a 2 minute more wait it is the turn of Sayed. From all the students who have checked their result till now..ont one has qualified.Now the shopkeeper asks for the roll number.Sayed gives his roll number.He enters it…and here comes the result……………..

Sayed has qualified the exam..This is the moment he will never forget in his life. He is very happy today, runs back homes and informs his parents about this, he justs lifts his mother in air. All are so thrilled, but his mother also has this constant fear that after a month his boy will be gone. But they are enjoying the present. There are celebrations at home, and all the blessings and well wishes from around the world are coming for Sayed. He is just ……………( cannot explain in words ) . He has achieved his dream.

Now after about a month, comes his time to depart. He has cleared all the physical etc…..an is now going for training.He has packed his bag. All are standing at the railway station. HE just stands tall above the rest at the railway station and his parents are proud of him. His mother is just somehow trying to stop her tears to come and saving them for the time when he will not be here. His face is shining like a sun. Here comes the train shunting. Sayed gets on the train. His parents are advicing him to find a seat close to window. Train waits only for two minutes at the station. And now it blows the whistle and is ready to take a son far away from his parents…They are waving hands to him happily ..And as soon as the train is gone Sayed’s mother bursts oout and cries……….

Now Sayed is in the college and goes through all the training successfully…( I’ll not xplain all that ) But now he has become a soldier an is placed somewhere in Kashmir. Here starts the real story…

He is very young..just 20 .In Kashmir he is placed in the residential area which is a relief for him as he gets to see many faces daily, which is otherwise difficult for soldiers.placed elsewhere…Anyway time goes on. Here in the residential area he daily watches an old women, and a girl who helps her cross the street and then just runs for her college. Next day he goes to the old women and helps her cross the road before arrival of the girl. When the girl comes and sees all this, she is just impressed by the soldier and thanks him. And now the girl has enough time to catch the bus to her college. This becomes a habit, sayed daily helps the old women cross the road. And one day the girl comes to sayed and gives him an invitation letter for a dinner at her house. He accepts the invitation. And goes for the dinner. At the dinner he sits with the girl .And the girl is like…watching him all the time, she tell him about the different dishes on the table…Sayed is just busy in eating the tasty food after such a long time. After the dinner Sayed thanks the girl’s mother for such a delicious food. Then he asks the name of the girl…” it fatima ”, she tells. Fatima walks with him to the door and says bye to him..and tells him to meet tommorow. Now they start meeting daily…( how small love story naa …kya karun time nahi hai ) And the gradually they start loving each other…..And after about a year or so, Sayed is placed somewhere else( Bangladesh border) and he cant even take fatima with her, as they have not informed their parents about this.

Now Sayed is in Bangladesh and all he has is a picture of fatima, which he always keeps close to his heart. ( you see when love comes, parents are nowhere in the story ) Anyway life goes as usual for sayed, but he is missing fatima a lot and same is the case on fatima’s side.

Now its been 1 year in Bangladesh and here comes a case of terrorist encroachment and there are many arrests and one of the criminal is a girl and Sayed is made incharge of her. It is his duty to force the committer to confess her crime. He enters the jail and is fully taken aback to see that the girl is fatima, his breath is taken away. It took him a minute to come back to normal. But he performs his duty and forgets all past relations for a while. He just asks her again and again that why did she do this ? and she keeps on repeating that she is not responsible for this, Sayed becomes strict and even beats her. He didn’t let anyone know that he had a relation with her. She is now even barred from meals. She is just starving to death. Sayed still has love for her in his heart, and secretly goes to her jail and offers her some food.At this very moment sayed is spotted by his officer. And he comes to know about his relation with the girl. The very next day, fatima is being dragged in the corridors and is being taken somewhere else by some soldiers. Sayed is totally confused about this and inquires what is going on? He is told by the officer that Fatima is to be executed today and Sayed will do this task. He cannot understand what is going on…

Now he is given a gun and his lover is in front of him, he is being forced by the officer to just shoot…….

He shoots but not fatima , he shoots the officer and straight into the head.Then he even shoots his leg,and gives the gun to fatima and asks her to run for life. And tells that he will explain that the girl stole the gun , shot the officer, injured me and ran. At this very moment fatima cannot decide what to do, but being wise she ran. She was worried about Sayed, and was praying to god to save him….and there she ran ..and ran ……and ran……….

And now 5 years have gone and Sayed has given away his job, and just has a photo of Fatima in his hand,and searching for the girl all over the world.There is just this hope which is keeping him alive……..

Look around you.... Precationary warning...
All those who have plenty of time to waste ...b my guest and read the blog.
But those who have value for time..please dont bother to read what follows..

..............><........................ Today I was just going thru the worst 1 hour of my life... Situation : I'm in a company for my intern..I got up late in the morning ...ay 7:23 AM ( to b specific) And it takes 15 mints from home to my office...And somehow I managed to get there at 8:00 Am..I was feeling dizzy...Just sat in the seat...nd why are the cushions of these seats so damn thick...u feel like just sinkin' in dem and they make u feel more sleepy..Instead wooden chairs shud be put ......Oh I got away from the topic.....And I passed half an hour just reading news on timesofindia.com...... u see .everything is just a click away !! After that I was waiting for somebody to come and give me work.....10,15 ...30 mints Time passed just like that and no one came.......Then I went upto Grant's office and saw that he was having trouble shifting his office...so I helped him...But as I was feeling dizzy..I just screwed it......As I carried the box its handle went away and everything was on the floor... but he was a nice chap and didnt mind...But I completed the task and organised everything... Then came back to my office and just tried to concentrate...It was then I remembered the word " blog " and started reading blogs...and time flied like anything.......Some of the blogs took my breath away . .. Is this the place I want to be at ...( my company ) ?? Here we have to work( or just sit ) from 8 in the morning to 5 in the evening ...having no time for myself.................Student life was much better than this.....I had freedom to get up late in d morning and had enough time to do whatever I liked..It was then that I realised that why people miss there student lives....Now I have just 1 year left and will live this one year like last year of my life...to make it unforgivable year....
I just composed some lines at this moment :
Look around You !!
Look down the bar from you !!
At the faaces that you see .......
R u sure this is where u want to be ....
These r ur frnds , but are they real frnds...
Do they love u ...as much as me.....
Will continue in next post.....

Dairy Entry 1

23^rd May 23, 2007 ( India )

Today was my “dream come true “ day . I woke up at 3:00 in the morning for the first time in last 3 years and got ready for going to airport for the flight which was going to take me to my dream destination , Canada .I was very delighted.

At the airport:

I was very confused about where to go and what to do. But somehow I managed to do it all and found everything either by general knowledge or by asking someone. There only I met my friend who accompanied me through my journey uptill Birmingham. His name is Sarabhjeet Singh. His was not a normal case . He was only 2 yrs older than me and was going to London on the basis of his marriage. I was somewhat amazed at first .But he proved to be a good friend. And then we both found our way through the airport. I helped him and even he helped me at times. It was really a good experience. We went all the way talking on many topics. We had a stop at Amritsar for about 30 minutes. Then we boarded for Birmingham and it was a long duration flight ( about 9 hours ) . I took many photographs from my window seat and I was delighted all through the way. On the way I had my friendship deepened with my new friend . And also I met two very cute girls just sitting next to me . Hey hold on a second , they were little girls about age of 5 . They were really cute and were going to Toronto too.I got many fundaas from their father . He is also a great person . He has been living in Toronto for last 8 years . Earlier he had lived in Australia too for 7 years. He seemed to be a happy and satisfied person . I also chatted with him for about half an hour and got to hear many important things about how to manage alone……………..

Now I’m in my plane to Toronto and feeling quite sleepy as I have not slept since last 26 hours and I’m about to reach ……but my batteries are also exhausted so will continue writing in Canada….