Thursday, October 30, 2008

I woke up in the morning today... And it was bright day...It was perfect and complete.. I opened my window, everything was shining. White snow has covered everything, it was white all around, also the sky was white, so it was all looking like a white sheet of paper on my window. Snow had been falling all night, and now it has gathered like 10cms or 15cms, and everything was literally covered by snow... It just felt soo nice to be at a place like this... Everything was soo beautiful... On the way to work I preferred walking, I could see the moutains , completely white, children playing with snow on the way, the river had some white spots in between due to the rocks in it... Everything seemed to be new and better.... Awesome experience... I just want the weather to be like this for next 1 month (which I know it will be, for next 6 months).. ;)
Nothing else on my mind these days..


Snow Fall
It was perfect... It is said that winters start just after Deepawali.. And that is today.. So as I was coming to the office today I was feeling a bit chill, and before I forget to mention it has been continuously raining since last 2 days.. to help decrease the temperature... But today snow fall started, At around 10:30 AM in the morning I could see the snow flakes dropping down from sky through the window in front of my desk..It was really awesome.. Also cold breeze was blowing to make it more romantic. It was soo cold I could not even go for lunch.. I was really happy today. I talked to many of my friends in India and shared the happiness... to some I was talking after a real long felt good !! It was truly great feeling !! While coming back.. it was like 6:30PM, still snow was falling, I went to the supermarket, and then to play.. I spent almost an hour and half, It was 8 in the night, when I came out the weather had not changed much.. I decided to go by bus instead of cycling back home.. But somehow I changed my plan, I just wanted to experience this first snowfall.. It is approximately 2 Km ride. I decided to cycle back.. cold wind was also blowing.. And most importantly I did not had any gloves, cap or anything.. Just a t-shirt and a jacket over it.. !! It reminded me of the time when in India I went home on my motorbike, to experience the chill.. BUt this was much small ride.. Though the effects were almost the same..I got my hands swollen in just 10 minutes of ride.. But it was mind blowing experience, steering through the wind and through the snow.. It was clouding my vision.. I had to put one hand in front of my eyes to prevent snow from entering my eyes..Finally when I reached home, literally I could not feel my hands...I had to sit in the quilt for quiet some time to get back to normal.. It is 12 in night right now, and it is still snowing..
I'm just loving it.......


Wednesday, October 29, 2008

there is no market for sorrow.....
so never advertise ur feelings......


Tuesday, October 28, 2008

WIthout failing you do not know your weaknesses. And losing again and again is also a weakness. But accepting your weaknesses is not the way to live life. You have to try and improve yourself to not to commit such mistakes again.
But sometimes in life failures give sucha set back to person that he is all broken down. These are times when your real attitude towards life is at test. Those are the times during which most of the jwells of this planet have been lost, some talent goes to trash. People are so much heart felt that they just quit and lose trust in life. They are also not at mistake, coz it really hurts sometimes, but if they cannot pass that phase I guess they dont deserve it. I mean a person who cannot handle these emotions of being down, would also not be so good to handle the emotions when he is at the top of the world, coz both are strong feelings. So you just have to be calm and quiet to be successful.

I have not failed 10,000 times, I have found 10,000 ways which wont work!(T. Edison)


Sunday, October 26, 2008

Sometimes silver also shines as Diamond, though it may not glitter .. !!
This is my 50th blog and I want this blog to be good. From past 2 days all I had been doing is thinking of life.. So here I begin my blog..[Silver Jublee blog]

It takes courage to climb a mountain, but without climbing the mountain how will we get to see such scenic beauties... Rest you may, but never stop... Whatever you do, be it anything, just give your best, and if you cant better quit at earlier stages rather then repenting later. And by giving your bes I mean it. I mean your 100% ,try and go till the end..And the most important part is you should know your 100%,you should know what you are capable of. Though you may dream high, but never forget where you belong. Have commitments in life. Commitment is doing the thing you said you would do long after the mood you said it in has left you. BE careful while using the word commitment in your life. And when you use it, please never forget it. It will always make you feel proud of yourselves, once you attain what you always strived for..
Dream !!, it always helps but you should also be practical in life. Never live in a dream world. Be fully aware of both sides of the coin. Being positive in life and dreaming are all together different things..Being positive gives you a kick, gives you a positive energy to help you do whatever you are upto...Contrary to it dreaming only helps you visualize your aim, but never achieve it.. !!
But sometimes we are so much engaged in the wordly emotions that we think it is better to live in a dreamy world, where all the promises are completed, nobody ever betrays you, you are always happy...but world is not like that my dear. Other than emotions there are so many beautiful things on this lovely planet you should care for. I know it always hurts to detatch from people, it is natural, why we always hope for days to have more than 24 hours when we are with someone close, why the talks never end even though the topics may be exhausted, why we realise the importance of all those random time spent when somebody close goes away, may be we would never have realised their importance without being away from them. People come and go in life, but if we don't let them go we will never be able to know ourselves well. Log aate hain, chale jaate hain, yaadien reh jaati hain. And rather than crying over all those memmories, we should cherish them. Thinking of them again and again, only hurts and makes those memories look ugly. So we should rather decorate them in our slambook of lives, and refer to it whenever we feel down. These memmories should be there to boost us up, not to make us feel down... And we should always thank all the people who have come in our lives, god knows we will ever get that oppurtunity again or not. I thank all the people who have come in ly life and created a difference, made me feel special, made me feel inspired, gave me the zeal to go on in life, taught me how to laugh at every failure, without them I cannot imagine my life to be complete.
I dont want any shoulder to cry, dont want any mouth to advice, any hand to support, for all that god has given me enough power and if not I would like to fight for it. All I want is somebody to listen to me, have that feeling of trust in someone and by god's grace I had all those people in life ....


Thursday, October 23, 2008

I feel like a boy playing on the sea-shore diverting his attention to the pebbles, to find a smoother pebble, while the vast ocean of truth lay before him undiscovered...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

everybody is free to feel good .. !!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

A Beautiful Heart

One day a man declared that he had the most beautiful heart. It was perfectly in shape and smooth and shining. An old man came to him and claimed that his heart may not be as beautiful as old man's own heart. The young man took a look at the heart of old man. It was beating fastly with all scars and rough edges on it. The man defended his opinion and countered that how can such a dirty heart be a beautiful heart at all. The old man then explained, though my heart may be full of scars and tears. But each scar represents a person to whom I have given my love. I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them. And often they give me a piece of theirs which fits in the empty space.But because the pieces are not exact, sometimes they are smaller, sometimes bigger, therefore I have all those rough edges. All those remind of the love I have shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away without getting any piece from other person.This is the reason for all those cavities. Afterall giving love is taking a chance. Although these voids may be painful, but they remain open reminding me of love I have for those people too. And I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now you see What True Beauty is ? Did you protect your heart so much that it is perfect without scars ? Have you ever touched someones's life ?
Sometimes it hurts but this is when life counts

- Joker

Monday, October 20, 2008

Princess of my life

I dreamt of my princess,

So pure, so beautiful,
I was lost in her eyes,
Will always be thankful,
Will try to be wise,
Will never be awful...
always be nice.
I dont wanna lose her !!
This world would be a paradise if she is by my side,

Will be delicate like a glass,
Would never let her break,
Will watch her from far,
would never ever overtake,
Let her spread the magic ....
I don't wanna lose her !!
This world would be a paradise if she is by my side,

May god be partial in blessing her,
May I get all the pain,
I am mad about her, I surrender,
Don't wanna let it go in vain,
I dont wanna cry again ,over and over again !!
I dont wanna lose her !!
This world would be a paradise if she is by my my side !!


Sunday, October 19, 2008

I had read this story when I was in 9th standard ... I clearly remember it was one of a shining morning of month August, and it was a Sunday... !! The story really touched me, and it always does when I remember that day... It goes like this....
Once upon a time there was a boy, like a normal boy he went to school, studied there, played after school and came back.. !! But this boy had a special affection for playing football, he would stay on the field till it was soo dark that he couldn't see the ball. Though he didn't had the talent but the hard work was there. He would do anything for playing football. And the good thing was that his dad supported him in all that, he would stay with him in the field till he wanted to. He never forced him to study, or leave playing football, what he did was just supported him. Then the boy got admission in college. There also football dominated most of his time.. Till 2nd year he didn't even get in the College team, but as he approached 3rd year, by the end of 2nd year, during the trials he was accepted for the extras in the team.. !! He was very happy with this new happening in his life. Though he was only selected for extras, he practiced more than the normal players did. He never missed a practice day. Throughout the third year he didn't get to play much, he was replaced generally in final minutes of match. But this never dis-appointed him, his dedication towards the game stayed, and moreover it has increased over time. And the constant thing was that his Dad never missed any match of his. He was always there was to support him.

Finally came his last year of college life. And as the team was announced, he saw his name in the first 11 players. He was no more playing as an extra. He was very happy. After two months he had to play a match for the college. He practiced a lot. And finally only 3 days were remianing for the match. He was practicing on the field. And suddenly his coach came to him with a paper in his hand. It was a fax from the boy's house. His dad has had a heart attack , and was no more. The coach didn't know how to tell this to him, he simply handed the paper to the boy, and told him to go home and no need to return for the match. He should be there, and they need him. He went home.

On the day of the match, their team was playing against the strongest college team in their Zone. It had to be a tough match. The first half ended with an no goals from both sides. And just in the begining of second half a goal was scored against our [refrring to boy's college team] team. And now the match became interesting. The other team defended well. And only 20 minutes were remaining for the match to end, and other team was strong enough to still maintain that lead of 1.Suddenly it was noticed that out of no where a boy emerged from the dressing room and came straight to the coach of our team, and asked him to give him a break in next change. He wanted to play. The coach had no option bit to try him. coach allowed him to go in. He went in with a zeal. He took the ball, moved it to the right, moved it to the left, did 2-3 cross overs, and finally went for a GOAL.. Yeah it was an equalizer.. And finally towards the ending minutes, as a result of a brilliant pass given by him, one more goal was scored, and our team finally won..There were celebrations all over the field.. It was such a close match.. All the audiences were just stunned.. The celebrations ended till late night.. everybody was happy..After everything was over and all celebrations came to an end, everybody had gone home. There was just a single person sitting in the field. It was our hero of the day, the star boy. But he was crying.. The coach went upto him and asked for that why was he crying, after all we had won the match.. He told the coach that , you know that I played for the team but always as an extra, but do you also know that my dad always came to see all my matches..But today was the only match, in which I had to play as a player, and I knew my dad would be watching me from up there.. I did it all for him !!


Friday, October 17, 2008

Piece by Piece...Inch by Inch

The struggle of life is endless. People want to have a rich life, a prosperous life, some want a happy life, some want a famous life... But what most of us forget in achieving a certain kind of life is that we need to live first to put these adjectives on our lives.. I mean we need to have a life....whatever your aim maybe, the "struggle to live" is everywhere and it depends on your vision whether it is clouded or broad..!! And a life without struggle is boring..If there are no challenges in life a person would spend the life thinking and the thought process would create challanges in life... Even the peace has challenges within it... !!
There is a race everywhere, be it your profession, be it about the clothes you wear, be it the attitude you wear, or the knowledge you possess...This all depends on the priority you give to them...
But in every race you have just inches to win over, just pieces to cover.. One more step and you could have been the winner, but somebody did it already... You have to win inch by inch, piece by piece..All the inches are necessary though they may not seem to be so, but when all the inches or pieces are joined together they make a big difference....So never may be losing an inch..!!
I can write all this but I dont know whether I will ever write in the rule book governing my I even have a rule book of life.. !!..But apart from all this.........
I dont wanna be Mr.X,I dont wanna be Mr,Y, or some person who is known for their wisdom in respective fields..I dont wanna be nobody..I aint nobody...But when I look back, I just wanna say that I did it my way..


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Why do people attach to someone/something so much that when they go away it hurts..I can never understand it.. and can never even try to repel it...I just wanna accept life as it comes..
I just wanna be free from all this logic.. I want to lose all the rationalism.. Just want to live in a dream world, where I honestly will believe in magic..Where nothing is truly impossible.. I just want to be crazy me.. the hopelessly romantic me.. !!
I just want to live every moment of life, it will never come back, and just want to do whatever heart says, and be bold enuff to say "Shut Up" to my mind and its logic .. !! At last we are what we think we are... !!
But did you notice how many times the word "want" has been repeated in the above briefing of my future life...
" Yaar life mai chahte to bahut log bahut kuch hain.."..
So Chillax... !!


Friday, October 10, 2008


The most waited and lovely season of the year :Autumn.. Come october and the roads will be filled with maple leaves of diiferent can find all of them, some yellow, some red, some purpule... I dont wanna go into the scientific reason for these different colors.. But I just enjoy this scenery.. It is soo mind freshening dunno y..And also if you notice carefully, all the plants shine and the sky is as clear as it can be.. The voice of birds is different...The leaves are departing from the trees, to be replaced by new ones.... Contrastingly we humans are in most depressing of moods during this process of departure in life... But it is also worth noticing that many things dont change, and also new leaves have already started budding on the trees,as the old ones leave..I dunno should I mix the philosphy or not.. But it is kinda not going with it.. yeah ? I will just carry on with appreciating it..
As I walk from my home I can see the streets flodded with leaves, and there are really tonnes of them, and on the mountains you can look at the trees, they are no more green, they are multi-colored. And green is no more the only color which makes the scenery perfect .. I guess the colors I saw are more than it !! Everybody around is looking so happy, everybody has a smile on their face, birds are chirping, and even the sound of river seems to be like it wants to express its happiiness.. Cool breeze is blowing and touching you again and again to make you realise that it is not a dream... you are livin it ...Man m really experienceing the autumn/fall as they say..." Fall " is rather a wrong terminology, as it is not a fall, but nature is at its peak during this season !!


Thursday, October 09, 2008

Live your Dreams

I can discuss this topic of dreams very broadly, as I myself am an intensive dreamer. I dunno what should I do of it... But I cant change it, this is me. I dream and dream of soo many things in life and like a star gazing child I just continue gazing at the stars and live in a life of hope, of dreams, some fullfilled, some not..But I like to live life that way, atleast I get to see the good part, even though it may be an illusion. Because me and luck were never on speaking terms. Dreaming has become a part of life, and with all its advantages and disadvantages I cannot give it up. Whenever I meet someone , I have dreams in my mind, I think about that other person in a way I would like to and assume that the feeling is mutual. I keep on pursuading this dream boat as far as possible, knowing that the river in which the boat is sailiing is gonna dry soon, still I just want to see the river dry... And on other hand I have many ideas which remain unspoken in my heart, Many lyrics have been written by this heart of mine, which have never been sang as a song.. I cannot dig up for all those hidden treasures and make a treasure box of them... And the best part is that I dont even miss them, I never dream of past, I dream in present, atleast it is better. Because dreaming of past is like kissing the mouth of a gun, it is like looking into your beloved's grave..
I'm that innocent star gazing child, who just wants to ignore the fact that earth is revolving, the stars at which he is gazing are never the same, they keep on changing. But still to every new star he looks at in the sky he looks the same way forgetting that they are ever changing, and also the intensity of the existing stars is changing..... Now all this child needs is a "sun", which has same intensity all throughout and can never be replaced.. But this child is not strong enough, or rather I should say is lazy enough not to go and search for this SUN... I like it that way... Atleast I nnever long for a SUN, if it comes by itself it would be better.. !!

And also rumour is that you should Live your Dreams, with so many dreams,if I start living them all, I would need million lifes for it.... So I better like to be a dreamer......


Tuesday, October 07, 2008

One day Maths teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.
On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. "Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much," were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in "Kargil" war and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never attended Funeral of a serviceman before. He looked so handsome, so mature.
The place was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk. The teacher was the last one to bless .
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. "Were you Sanjay's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes." Then he said: "Sanjay talked about you a lot."
After the funeral, most of Sanjay's former classmates were there. Sanjay's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket "They found this on Sanjay when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it."
Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Sanjay's classmates had said about him.
"Thank you so much for doing that," Sanjay's mother said. "As you can see, Sanjay treasured it."
All of Sanjay's former classmates started to gather around. Arjun smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."
Prithwiraj's wife said, " Prithwiraj asked me to put his in our wedding album."
"I have mine too," Rashmi said. "It's in my diary"
Then Deepali, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. "I carry this with me at all times," Deepali said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists"
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Sanjay and for all his friends who would never see him again.
The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.


So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

- Joker

Monday, October 06, 2008

Everybody has some purpose in life. Athletes strive daily to achieve a perfection in their games, Managers toil hard to fond new ways to manage infrastructure, Doctors have a passion to find newer and better methods to cure patients, Engineers want to make living easy for people, Students want to be at the top, A lover invents new ways daily to impress his beloved........... All have something. But if we remove this label from the respective persons, that is thinking as a human-being. What is your purpose in life, what do you want out of your life.. ?
Many people know their dreams be it anything and fight hard for it. As we grow in life we keep on getting these new labels according to the profession and the local purpose of life, that is the short term purpose of life keeps on changing. But what is the global that is long-term aim in life. For me it is "peace". And though during the coarse of life I would have to ignore my main aim in life, but finally I want peace in life. These short-term aims in life should not be that much as to change and over-power the long term aim in life..
It is generally said that having an aim in life is beneficial.. It makes life more meaningful. But this is not it, you should fight for it. Being a little restless in life is always better. But when it comes for what you want in life, "Just Go For It"..Yo dont have to think twice or it... If you have a passion in life and you give your 100% to achieve it, it doesnt even matters whether you lose or win at the end. Because the defeat is also like winning at the end of this battle. Atleast you tried, and now you know that it wont work and many people just dont try coz they have heard that it wont work, but you are sure of it. so its not your defeat, you have won in a way .. !!
Dreaming.. is not at all bad, but if it is limited, it should not be that you live your life in a dream... Dream, but try and live on those dreams if they are worth, otherwise just forget them....There should be something in life for which you just can give everything, be it a person or something else. Choice varies from person to person, but without such commitment in life, it is not worth living !!

Dream of something,
Sing for it,
After that it doesnt matters !!

- Joker

This name is not inspired by any movie or anything, was thinking of keeping this name from some time now,but didn't feel like it earlier.
Joker is person who always makes people laugh. He is always seen with a smile on face.Never will you see a joker cry,and even if a joker cries, it is to make you laugh. We have such a short life, but the tensions in life are multiple and countless. " Chaar din ki Zindagi hai, Aur gam 40 dinon ka "..Kuch log gam mai hi Zindagi nikaal dete hain..But joker is a person who spends his life in spreading happiness... Happiness is a wealth which grows with distributing.. Joker never allows somebody to approach closer, as somebody will come closer, he/she will start understanding the feelings of Joker.. But all people only know that joker never cries...So joker's image is lost and he is no more a joker... Joker also has feelings, but he doesnt wants anybody to understand them, he just fakes it with a small joke or something, but hides it everytime, because then it would all be a different ball game...Joker never thinks of himself, he always thinks of other people in this world...
So to deal with worldly emotions rather than being anyone else I would prefer to be a Joker....

"Why So Serious, Lets put a smile on this face of yours !! "


Sunday, October 05, 2008

Jaane kahaan gae vo din, kahate the teri raah mein
nazaron ko ham bichhaaenge
chaahe kahin bhi tum raho, chaahenge tumako umr bhar
tumako naa bhuul paaenge
jaane kahaan gae ...

mere kadam jahaan pade, sajade kiye the yaar ne - 2
mujhko rulaa rulaa diyaa, jaati hui bahaar ne
jaane kahaan gae ...

apani nazar mein aaj kal, din bhi andheri raat hai - 2
saayaa hi apane saath thaa, saayaa hi apane saath hai
jaane kahaan gae ...

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Today just everything looks so beautiful...From soo many days, here in Switzerland I didn't get to see a proper sunlight. It was all cloudy and cold these days..Yesterday it even rained ..though this kind of weather is very soothing...
But today in the morning I woke up, as usual late..but today I didn't hurry up for getting dressed and all.. I did it all slow and steady..There was a different sense of peace in my was all cool and calm !!
When I went out I saw the Sun shining, and believe me it was soo beautiful all around.. All the trees on the mountain in front of my appartment were really shining, and the river in the valley was no more looking like a normal river, it seemed to carry a different glow in it, as if it was not water, but some heavenly liquid...And birds were flying ..Everything was perfect..I didn't feel like riding my bike in such a weather.. I rather went by foot with my enjoy this to the fullest..And the sky was clear..all blue..and white patches in between.. Slow breeze was also blowing, so it was not soo hot, but sun had made its impact on all the surroundings........... Really switzerland is very beautiful !!

Ae mekhi hawa mujhe le jaa wahan
Mile zameen se jahan jhuk jhuk aasman
Jahan aankhon mein ho ek pyaara sama
Jahan waadiyon se uthe ruk ruk ke dhuan

Sheher door se hain kahin woh jagah
Jharanon kahai sho jahan daba daba
Jahan bolti hogi woh khamoshiyan
Parbaton pe ho jahan badliyan

Pedon ki chaaon ho jahan pe ghani ghani
Suraj ki kirnen ho jahan pe chani chani
Khushboo ho shaam ki jahan pe bheeni bheeni
Mile jahan pe chand se woh chandni

Mein wahan hoon ho tanhaiyan
Mere dil ko na khaye wahan
kabhi koi fikre jahan

P.S : Nothing else is on my mind today.. !!
Aditi : Mujhe lagta hai Jai change ho gaya hai...wo aajkal Meghna ko bahut importance dene lag gaya hai, hume bhool hi gaya hai ..
Aditi's Frnd : Nahi Aditi , Jai to shuru se hi aisa tha, bas pehle wo bandi tu thi .. !!

.................... Worth Pondering ..........................

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much

Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day, each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how blessed I feel
to have you here with me